Raging Ego

by LEX the Lexicon Artist

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[verse 1] Ladies and gentlemen and nonconformists, Please, direct your attention to my performance Now train your line of vision on me like the eye of Horus And you shall find that my metaphorical dong’s enormous Of course Do you believe that you’re not afforded your due respect? Or treated with the height of decorum that you expect? Maybe you’re doing your best but feel neglected In a sea of perfection it’s easy to feel defective Well, I got an answer that will help you with your deep shame Confront your enemies by telling them to peep game See they've been sleeping on your flames, you've been defamed But I swear the recognitions there for you to reclaim And as a kid people said I was strange But now that I'm older I'm proud I'm an artist with range And though it's true other people's minds are the hardest to change I'll use all my power to keep em peeping hard at my game [chorus] If you’re doing something different and they call you a freak Because you’re making people listen when you’re rockin the beat Say Peep Game If you always bring the fire but they’re never impressed Because their shit is uninspired and they know you’re the best Say Peep Game [verse 2] Man I got so much game you couldn't peep it all in one day Peeping from the weekend all the way to Monday My game is colorful, blue pink and yellow Treat me like it’s Easter and gimme them peeps marshmallows Maybe you could bring your peeps to the show Cause I got so much game to peep and I want people to know I just bring the heat and they eat it up like pizza to go In a minute I’m drowning in it I’ll be deep in the dough Let’s go My game is exhibitionist, peep it like you’re Tom My game is like my laptop, peep it like my mom My game is different in a field full of sheep Step up to the stage and give it a little Bo peep Uhhh Yeah, I’m like the Lex to your Brainiac You look a little green in the face of megalomaniacs Staring in the box like my game’s a peep show I’m breaking out to satisfy my raging ego [chorus] If you’re doing something different and they call you a freak Because you’re making people listen when you’re rockin the beat Say Peep Game If you always bring the fire but they’re never impressed Because their shit is uninspired and they know you’re the best Say Peep Game
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Awwww yeahhh [verse 1] I am an artist I am free I am an artist It’s all about me I write my own songs And I’m doing it well I am an artist and I hate myself I wake up every morning and I wish I was dead It’s taking all my motivation just to get out of bed I’m so high feeling like a million dollars in debt You don’t become an artist till you’re fucked in the head [prechorus] So don’t believe me when I say I’m fine I live in tragedy all the time And it’s easy when I don’t know why I put my sanity on the line And all my empathy has all but died I can’t remember how to cry So if you see me when I’m on the mic Just know I’m bleeding deep inside And I say [chorus] Oh, I need professional help I am an artist and I hate myself X4 [verse] I am an artist I am unique I say I’m normal but I’m really a freak Hi, it’s very nice to meet you, call me LEX I like good music and I love rough sex I’m emotionally repressed with an avoidant attachment Antisocially depressive and devoid of compassion It’s proportionally expressed in the annoying attraction I have for sadomasochistic boys in the sack [prechorus] But don’t believe me when I say I’m fine I live in tragedy all the time And it’s easy when I don’t know why I put my sanity on the line And all my empathy has all but died I can’t remember how to cry So if you see me when I’m on the mic Just know I’m bleeding deep inside And I say [chorus] Oh, I need professional help I am an artist and I hate myself X4 [verse 3] Oh, we thought of offing ourselves We made our art but put our lives on the shelf It’s like yo See all I wanted was fame But maybe fame and misery are one and the same So like Maybe I should just give up on the game I could save myself the strain of ever going insane I’m making the change, abstaining from pain and any danger I can waste my brain and make the whole world safer [bridge] So believe me when I say I’m fine I live in apathy all the time And it’s easy when I don’t know why I put my vanity on the line And my antipathy is clandestine You’ll never catch me out of line But if you see me when I’m on the mic Know that I’m going out my mind [chorus] Oh, I need professional help I am an artist and I hate myself X4
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[verse 1] Let me tell you bout a crazy story Let me tell you what I do for fun Let me tell you bout my fame and glory Odd job hobby, two for one I like playing with the minds of the people I like saying all my lines really well People tell me that I’m kinda deceitful But I ain’t tryna play you I’m just trying to sell Well I’m oversharing so I’ll spare you the details Presales, Retail Can I get your email? (please) When I’m famous I’ll be making it a sequel Death of a salesman Asian female! Life is sales and sales is life And if I fail in love I’ll make sales my wife You might not quite get it or know the appeal But Imma show you mothafuckas how to close the deal [prechorus] Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care And it might seem a little bit scary Don’t worry, a price tag is arbitrary! (that’s right!) Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care We only live for a limited time So call now and get it for just 9.99 [chorus] I’m, I’m, I’m a sales freak X8 [verse] Other girls like to go for the clothes I prefer to try to go for the close Get my freak on when I’m hitting the phones Or when I’m busy getting everyone to go to my shows Ha Cause I’ve been selling all over the place I put a foot in the door or get a door in the face I could get a broken toe and still get in the gate And then I follow these steps when it’s time to negotiate Step one, establish value Write a pitch so rad, it could smash a statue Step two, define your market How you gonna make a sale without finding your target Step three, anchor the price By using a high number as a priming device Step four, assume the sale Be assertive and confident, and you will prevail Now [prechorus] Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care And it might seem a little bit scary Don’t worry, a price tag is arbitrary! (that’s right!) Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care We only live for a limited time So call now and get it for just 9.99 [chorus] I’m, I’m, I’m a sales freak X8 [verse 3] When you’re sitting in the boiler room Think of what your employer would do Cold calling is annoying, it’s true So how do you haul ass while enjoying it too I like to think of it as exercise Cause actually sales tactics are effective in life If you happen to be like me, the competitive type You could hack your daily habits with some mental advice Say, hey, maybe you’ve having dating trouble Change your ways and think about it like a sales funnel Cause whether you’re a sex god or virgin Increasing prospecting increases conversion Here’s a tip from a psychology nerd Humans have a hard-wired reciprocity urge So if you offer something nice or some advice to somebody They’ll wanna buy your product more (did it work, it probably worked) The theory of cognitive dissonance (what’s that?) Is an easy way to operate business (why’s that?) Human beings want to seem consistent Contradict their beliefs, make them question existence (woo) Animatronic behavioral economics Can make you a profit off of the product of your choice I don’t need a Rolls Royce, I just need my sales knowledge World domination with my voice and degree from college [prechorus] Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care And it might seem a little bit scary Don’t worry, a price tag is arbitrary! (that’s right!) Let me see you put your wallets in the air Wave em around like you just don’t care We only live for a limited time So call now and get it for just 9.99 [chorus] I’m, I’m, I’m a sales freak X8
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[verse 1] Yeah. The world is mine for the taking I did my part but now I’m done with all the peacemaking And I should tell you that you’re getting fucking irritating So come in closer, I wanna feel your spirit breaking I’m mob rich What you got, bitch? My haters got me top of mind when you talk shit Cause you ain’t got shit, and you’re not sick But when I’m done you’ll need a doctor Cause I’m toxic Now why does everybody think that you’re the good guy? I know you never lived the principles you stood by And you should thank me that they only see your good side Cause I’m the one who’s evil but you’re just misunderstood, right? Well I can change their mind but personality is permanent Your pseudomorality’s your determinant So go on, keep on feeding them your lies As long as you keep in mind that I can see through your disguise [prechorus] You think you’re strong, huh You think I’m wrong, huh And after all these years we just can’t get along, huh So come on you think you’re smart enough to pick a fight Try to cross me bitch I’ll fuck you with my kryptonite [chorus] Cross me one more fucking time I’ll fuck you with my kryptonite Crush you with my cryptic mind Fuck you with my kryptonite [verse 2] The funny thing is, you know we got a lot in common And even though it took a lot of money and time for me to get to the state that I’m in I could tell you had potential, kid. We could do great things in a partnership But little did I know (that) I was dealing with a little pussy ass softhearted bitch I’m building an empire. I spent my entire life getting the pieces I’m putting ‘em together in my master plan, I’m graduating and the world is my thesis Motherfucker I’m a genius, and every single day my intellect increases My progression is ceaseless. Just try to stop me, I know your weakness. Yeah I’m a man of science, you’re just a fantasy And if I tried it, I could kill you singlehandedly You’re just a man to me, so don’t you get superior And try to save humanity, I’ll shower you with meteors I gave my life to the world, but now it bores me So I’ll take it back until you fuckers can’t ignore me Tell it to your friends and to the ones who bow before me You were right all along, I am the villain of this story [prechorus] You think you’re strong, huh You think I’m wrong, huh And after all these years we just can’t get along, huh So come on you think you’re smart enough to pick a fight Try to cross me bitch I’ll fuck you with my kryptonite [chorus] Cross me one more fucking time I’ll fuck you with my kryptonite Crush you with my cryptic mind Fuck you with my kryptonite Cross me one more fucking time I’ll fuck you with my kryptonite Crush you with my cryptic mind Fuck you with my kryptonite [outro] Fuck you with my kryptonite x4
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[verse 1] I always put my brain before my heart Ever since I was little they knew me for being smart Always think before I act and I never let down my guard Cause fuck knows what happened the last time I fell hard I’m not the person people come to for love advice I’m troubled too when I think about this stuff at night The bottom line is that part of my mind is stunted My avoidant attachment’s the problem that I’ve confronted Growing up across the Pacific Ocean I never noticed my parents rarely expressed their emotions The notion of being open was lost to me My thought processing shot like a frontal lobotomy Honestly it never bothered me as much as it should’ve Non-honesty modeled me as much as it could’ve And while it’s true that my lexicon is my claim to fame There’s only one more word I’m afraid to say And [chorus] It’s the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it The thought of someone loving me is honestly ludicrous It’s the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it But if you give me time maybe I could be cool with it [verse 2] I sound awkward but trust me nothing is wrong I’m probably blushing while I’m doing this song Cause when you’re spending your time fronting and tryna be strong It gets easy to bluff that you’re not kinda withdrawn I’m finding it hard to admit how I feel about your company We started casual and it happened pretty suddenly Utterly and deathly afraid of catching feelings I stubbornly dedicated to my act of concealing I tried to rationalize my attraction Holding myself back to minimize my attachment Dramatically overanalyzing our interactions Imagining our affinity as just a transaction But then, in a rush of endorphins and oxytocin You looked at me and you asked, “are you scared of emotions”? I said, “Yeah, very much so” I really hoped that you wouldn’t notice My eyes flying wide open and then you said [chorus] the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it The thought of someone loving me is honestly ludicrous It’s the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it But if you give me time maybe I could be cool with it [verse 3] I like it when you tell me that you miss me I like it when you smile and when you kiss me I gotta say I think about you when you’re not around But I’m embarrassed to admit it, like it’s not allowed I miss you after not seeing you for a couple days I guess my feelings are stronger than what my words convey But hey, I express it in a certain way I’ll write it in a song, and maybe then it’ll be my turn to say [chorus] the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it The thought of someone loving me is honestly ludicrous It’s the L word Show me how to be true to it It’s the L word I don’t know cause I’m new to it It’s the L word I don’t know what to do with it But if you give me time maybe I could be cool with it It’s Love
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[verse 1] I used to write in diaries And then I started writing music Now my life is recorded in its entirety Tiny wires etched with sonic ink that never fades Constantly depending on my hard drive to never break Think it’s strange When we were kids our journals were secret Harry Potter notepads and handmade locks to keep it safe Now I’m advertising my past like I’m passing leaflets Out to random strangers asking them to watch me be a freak on stage And that’s the magic and the curse of creativity You get to treat your demons but you need to wear them visibly Weave in all your misery with deep poetic imagery And willfully bare your soul, the limit is your dignity Let them into private worlds with something so public Open my veins with every song promoted and published Take all the things that make me sick to my stomach and shove it into the crowd in hopes that somebody will love it [chorus] And maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap For a chance to attract you Maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap Just to have you [verse 2] I remember when I first saw you play And your electrifying stage presence took my breath away Your music spoke to me more than my words could ever say Ever since then I’ve been thinking about you everyday I started looking into your discography To get a glimpse into your thoughts and ideology Thoughtfully articulated raw and brutal honesty I felt like I was reading your autobiography With every track I was exploring your brain Inhabiting your every pleasure and absorbing your pain I know that all your other listeners have felt like this too But I’m privileged to have shared something special with you And it’s because you cut your veins and all of the above Sounds insane, but I think I’m musically in love And you should know that I don’t like that word Which I mentioned in a song that you might have heard [chorus] And maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap For a chance to attract you Maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap Just to have you [bridge] What do you do when your most secret intent is also the thing you share to your social media friends What do you do when your confessional medium’s The subject of public scrutiny cause everyone’s seeing it Could I learn to live with it the way you do And all the other ones who may have paved the way for you I know you well enough to say that this was made for you No bravado, no pretense, just the naked truth for you [chorus] And maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap For a chance to attract you Maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap Just to have you Maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap Just to have you Maybe that’s you Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to Maybe that’s you Don’t mean to distract you But I would wrack all my brains in a rap Just to have you
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[chorus] I know exactly what you want I know exactly what you need I know exactly where you’re from I know exactly what you mean (Why?) Cause I’m a psych major And I’m a mind reading machiiiiine [verse] Some people ask me what I do Some people ask me where I work They ask me where I went to school Sometimes they ask me with a smirk And when I tell them that I went to UC Berkeley and I majored in psychology they turn into jerks Cause they don’t think that I can tell Their condescending tone of voice They think they’re doing so -- well They think I made a bad choice What they don’t know is that I Analyze their actions And I plan my interactions For the sake of satisfaction And boys [chorus] I know exactly what you want I know exactly what you need I know exactly where you’re from I know exactly what you mean (Why?) Cause I’m a psych major And I’m a mind reading machiiiiine [verse 2] I know I’m naturally smart But lack the talent of Descartes See I’m the master of the heart I have a Bachelor of Arts I know my models of attachment and the causes of attraction I could even break it down to its parts But I can see you’re not impressed By the degree that I possess And based on how you view success Why you might think it’s useless What you don’t know is that I see your inhibitions And your deepest superstitions All the broken dreams you’re keeping repressed [chorus] I know exactly what you want I know exactly what you need I know exactly where you’re from I know exactly what you mean (Why?) Cause I’m a psych major And I’m a mind reading machiiiiine [musical break] [bridge] From the hard science guys to the social science haters You’re trying to hate on me cause I’m a social psych major I can’t write code but I sure can write papers And I know your weirdest fetish and your most pathetic failures So come on baby let me analyze you Let me find out what has traumatized you I can read you like an open book Cause I’m a Berkeley psych major baby, don’t be shook why? [chorus] I know exactly what you want I know exactly what you need I know exactly where you’re from I know exactly what you mean (Why?) Cause I’m a psych major And I’m a mind reading machiiiiine X2
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[verse 1] I used to think that my parents didn’t love me I used to think that I was ugly I used to think that everything I did was just a waste of my energy I’d take every single friend I had and make her my enemy I was, filled with rage at the age of 8 I’d spend my days with all the boys making paper planes We’d throw them at the neighboring school, get thrown in detention We weren’t the cool kids but we owned the attention I spent a long time living under a shadow Proving that I was good enough was always a battle The teachers called me bossy, but I think I was just mean Cause I insisted every time on putting I in the team And I remember losing at Go to some random kid And I flipped my shit and screamed that I could kick his ass at violin Then I quit my Go lessons, and violin as well Where would I be if I had challenged myself? Because [chorus] I don’t really know where to go from here I wanna make mistakes but I’m cold with fear Do I have what it takes, am I just being stupid I wanna change the world but I don’t know how to do it x2 [verse 2] I’m sorry to all the kids that I tormented Who never thought their childhood bully would be repentant I can tell you I will never know how much it hurt Would it make you feel better to know I got what I deserved? I’m sorry to the friends that I betrayed I think I got too cocky for my pants, I thought I had it made But I was climbing a ladder I didn’t know would break So when it did I wasn’t prepared to accept my own mistake My friends abandoned me and left me on my own They will never know the agony of eating lunch alone And I totally deserved it for my lack of willpower I had the talk of a hot shot and the actions of a coward I'm sorry to the people that I lied to I can't repair the damage even if I tried to But most of all, I'm sorry to my mom and dad I know you wanted me to write a song that's not as sad But [chorus] I don’t really know where to go from here I wanna make mistakes but I’m cold with fear Do I have what it takes, am I just being stupid I wanna change the world but I don’t know how to do it x2 [verse 3] A friend from the internet messaged me saying great tunes I told him thank you for listening and to stay tuned Nine days later I find out that he passed away And now I feel like trash cause I never asked what he had to say Just because I’m an artist don’t mean that I’m a savior Or making music to make excuses for bad behavior My words don’t carry more weight cause I put them onto paper Really it’s the one thing that makes me think that I’m not a failure I tried a lot of things from theater to fiction Turns out rapping’s the only way that people would listen You’d think that it assisted with friendship but I admit that Part of why I love the stage is that keeps them at a distance I think I need to take a step back and curb my ego Let down my walls and open my heart to other people Until then I don't think that I can change the world I'll remain an overly ambitious Asian girl [chorus] I don’t really know where to go from here I wanna make mistakes but I’m cold with fear Do I have what it takes, am I just being stupid I wanna change the world but I don’t know how to do it X2
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[verse 1] Yeah I wear glasses, so what? I can make your whole fanbase go nuts Cause being nerdy is cool, it’s time to grow up Or maybe you’re a little jelly cause your flow sucks. I’m sicker than a chick sticking her fingers into her throat tryna throw up All the donuts she binged in a split second reckoning she’ll never be anything more than a record setter for eating all the donuts I’m blowing up like a samsung note 7 I open fire, no handgun, no weapon Damn son, I was rapping back in 07 Back when I was trapped with the Catholics tryna go to heaven And I was rapping with my glasses on Can’t remember the last time I didn’t have them on So elastic with the lyrics like an epsilon They’re an apt representation of my lexicon So [chorus] Get off your asses I’m a rap star, hit em with the glasses Uh X2 [verse 2] Four eyes used to be uncool So I was a geek in school My friendgroup was a cesspool of massive tools Giving me shit because I followed the rules (shit) I’ll duel you like I’m Alexander I’ll take your ass to school like I’m Bernie Sanders I’m your chief commander, I exceed the standard While the cheaters next to me are tryna read my answers Read too many books, I was ten years old Got a pair of specs and I said here goes They made me into a rejected weirdo And became the lens through which i see the world So A mechanism for correcting my retina Injected into my identification ended up setting a Precedent that nerdy was acceptable My spectacles Made me respectable Oh! [chorus] Get off your asses I’m a rap star, hit em with the glasses Uh X4 [verse3] I’m only getting better and better I’m feeling unfettered by tethers or pressure to be the mainstream I used to dream of getting on Letterman Then when it ended I settled for making it in my daydreams But I’m cool now, strange as it may seem We’re living in the golden age of dank memes And people dig it when I’m being eccentric spitting nonsensical shit like I’m in a game of spaceteam Maybe I’m a legend in the making cause The way of my trade is so painstaking but Maybe it’s the method that I shake it up Shakespeare on your ass, the rap game is up Smart is in And my heart is in it I’m delivering artful lyrics from start to finish Stepping onto your pedestal Kicking you in the genitals Hitting you in the head you can bet i’ll be wearing my glasses [hook] Get off your asses I’m a rap star, hit em with the glasses Uh X2
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"Raging Ego" is LEX the Lexicon Artist's debut full-length album.

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released June 6, 2018

"Raging Ego"

Written and performed by LEX the Lexicon Artist

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Incooperative at PictureBox Studios
Noah FB at SAE Expression College

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Ron Graves
Cecil Decker
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All tracks mastered by Bill Beats at Noir Grime Studios

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LEX the Lexicon Artist makes cerebral pop rap.

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